24/01/2026
This is mostly something I do in work/to avoid work. I'm just home from yoga, and got an unexpected life home which is nice. I slept very badly and I feel that tugging at all elements of me. I've found that the best way to sleep (for me to sleep) is to be as unencumbered and able to move as possible. But this makes it difficult to share a bed with someone. See below:
That is how I like to sleep. But this is how a lot of things work: it would be easier not to relate to other people, because you would avoid conflict. It would be easier not to make a page on your terrible website for your friend because you would avoid work. I don't know what I'm saying. What I mean is that I'm going to learn to sleep better. I'm going to use the lavender sleepy spray that my mother got me for christmas, and I'm going to start going to bed earlier. I've recently moved in with my boyfriend and a friend, and one of the greatest joys of my life (staying up talking) means I keep going to bed at stupid hours, but I still get up early for the other greatest joy of my life (writing) so I can get good work in before the greatest tragedy of my life (having a job) begins.
All this is to say that I'm so happy. Every day I wake up grateful for my current living situation, for the space and closeness it has given me. I am just typing this up before I go out to the IPSC's march for palestine in town, and then I'll meet my friends at the cinema to see Pillion. This is truly a diary, not a blog or a substack. Intentions for next time:
What do I want from myself
- LEARN HOW TO MAKE COLUMNS!!! oh my god.
- eating more blueberries
- more sleep
- the theme of all of this: find a way to balance love with regimine, without regimenting my love
here is last nights dinner:
